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Art Exhibit

2010-08-21T14:33:00.003+08:00

photo credits to Flaime.

this was during Bart x Mark's Exhibit. Siamese Kamunggay at Turtle's Nest. I arrived late though but really had fun. ^^ one word: AWESOME! event.

SUGARCOATED

2010-08-20T23:40:00.006+08:00

I don't like it when some people tend to stick their nose in somebody else's business. I do not have to try so hard to be mean, rude, harsh or whatever the adjective maybe because that is a characteristic of me, but, I always make sure that I get to tell or say mean/rude things to those who deserve it. If you are someone who had done not-so-good things towards me, expect that you will receive a lot of insults from me or otherwise prepare yourself for a special punch on the face. okay? :)

Am very easy to deal with, YES. albeit, if I grew tired, waiting, hoping and what not, trust me. It would be so hard to win ME back. I have had a share of experiences with people who gave me false hopes, broken promises and lies, however, still hope to be my friend, that I would still be the same Pamkin they had known. I am NO superwoman. Human as I am, I get disappointed, frustrated, happy, sad, who loves and can change. Who would not change, considering that you had been given those? I do not think you won't. I doubt it if nothings gonna change.

There were surely, many times, that I said things directly to you of which I do not consider to be mean, rude, harsh or in cebuano "bam kaayo", which were interpreted as rude for some people, just like what happened earlier tonight. A friend, told me to be gentle, because I was becoming, trigger rude towards the other person [i just realized now while ruminating about it, oh well, he deserved it though].

There is BIG difference between being rude and sugar-coating., I believe.

As for Sugarcoating, sugarcoats? these are beyond my capacities anymore, not really my line of business, eh.LOL. I cannot and would never do that to someone I care for, I'd rather tell them the truth about the harsh reality rather than utter words that are appealing or pleasant to them that could hurt them eventually, on the other hand, I appreciate people who are worthy to be appreciated. And if that someone is you, well, hence we could be best of friends. LOL.

I am never rude to someone who deserves it. :D

BREAKING THE ROUTINE

2010-07-30T13:23:00.003+08:00

To break the monotony of my everyday stints. I'm enrolling myself to Intermediate Nihongo Class. ;)

Learning new things is fun, exciting and yet so difficult at the beginning but an inch of hard work will surely make my way through this. I am looking forward to be able to speak Nihongo fluently by the end of it, hopefully. Gambatte ne!

http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_ixb5XuW90k4/SyjWuxhLEDI/AAAAAAAAABY/98K--4PqYA4/s320/gambatte-ne-1.jpg

*photo credits to ceramic dreams/CJ.

Another heart calls

2010-07-30T13:01:00.002+08:00

Just another All American Rejects song that I can go with the tune and more importantly, I can relate to.

Such an old song which still gives me chills and flashes of memories. :D

This song goes out to a very good friend of mine, Monmon Opolentisima. Whenever I hear it, it reminds me of her.

Just as soon as I see youI did lie but didn't I tell you?
As deep as I need you,You wanna leave it all
What can I do? Say it's true
Oh everything that matters breaks in two
Say it's true I'll never ask for anyone but you

these would be the lines that could describe of what I am going through right now. oh well, this too shall pass. I know.. God knows.

Things to be excited about? Or should I say to worry about?

2010-07-27T01:46:00.002+08:00

It's going to be a long week.

* RB recruitment

* Read the books that are stock on the shelves waiting to be read

* Make a reservation for the venue of that BIG event
* Prepare stuffs from registration down to the last details for the orientation

* Meeting my good old friends

* Facilitators' Circle RB Orientation which will happen on Sunday

So many things to do, so little time.

I am looking forward to accomplish all of these. I won't procrastinate. *CROSS-FINGERS* Shoooo FB~~! HAHAHAHA.

Never expect.

2010-07-27T00:47:00.004+08:00

I really don't have an idea of what to post right now. Just before I typed the first sentence, my mind drifted. I was staring blankly at my laptop and here I am, finding my fingers touch typing these words. :)) crazy.

I feel sad right now, confused at the same time coz I just can not understand why it is so easy for some people to make promises they CAN'T even keep. The moment you expect that to happen or to be kept, it would never ever come true, ever. You told me you are going stay, for me, with me and always.. Where are you now? I feel that you are slowly moving away, away from me. You did tell me that it would be hard for you not to see me anymore and told me stay. I stayed. But, look who's being distant now, being indifferent.. surely not me.

Always is equals to a broken promise.
Mean what you say and Say what you mean.

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Trailer - E3 2010

2010-06-04T18:08:00.001+08:00

I am such a big fan of Harry Potter series. From books to movies. :D
So excited for the movieeee :3

How to train your dragon

2010-05-08T21:17:00.000+08:00

From the studio that brought you “Shrek,” “Madagascar” and “Kung Fu Panda” comes “How to Train Your Dragon.” Set in the mythical world of burly Vikings and wild dragons, and based on the book by Cressida Cowell, the action comedy tells the story of Hiccup, a Viking teenager who doesn’t exactly fit in with his tribe’s longstanding tradition of heroic dragon slayers. Hiccup’s world is turned upside down when he encounters a dragon that challenges he and his fellow Vikings to see the world from an entirely different point of view. --© Dreamworks

a proof that I am still young at heart though I've grown up so much physically and with age. :P
well, talking about the film, I personally love it. Great characters, dazzling aerial animation, a very simply and good story told in a very entertaining and heartfelt way. Snappy writing and with such strong narrative, dreamworks had made such an awesome job! <3

Nihongo Lessons

2010-05-06T18:53:00.001+08:00

--- this book can be bought online at http://www.amazon.com/Minna-no-Nihongo-Bk1/dp/4883191028/ref=wl_it_dp_o?ie=UTF8&coliid=IZLE0RL68H1MK&colid=E3YEFPQ8QDXB

Every Tuesdays and Thursdays is my schedule for Nihongo Class with Sensei Gem and being in her class is so much fun~!

And having an environment which is really dynamic, fun, enjoyable and comfortable to be in makes it easier to study the japanese language. :P

I love to be in Sensei Gem's Class and with my Nihongo classmates. :)

Dear John

2010-05-05T17:55:00.001+08:00

Dear John is trademark Nicholas Sparks--romantic, sappy, sad and redeeming. If you like Sparks' previous novels, you will probably enjoy Dear John, a love story about an army sergeant who falls in love shortly before 9/11. Sparks' writing is smooth and easy, but the characters and plot are not particularly memorable. Recommended for those who like sappy romantic comedies (or tragedies, in Sparks' case), but not for those who like a little meat in their reading.

Nicholas Sparks, the bestselling author of A Walk to Remember and The Notebook, writes about love that aches sometimes but that continues to exist. Each time John goes back to visit Savannah, he learns more about love - he sees love around him, he feels love, he wants love, and he ultimately gives love.

Source:

http://bestsellers.about.com/od/womenslitchicklit/gr/Dear_John.htm

formspring.me

2010-05-05T16:25:00.001+08:00

Ask me anything http://formspring.me/pamkinhimura

Basics

2010-05-05T01:23:00.000+08:00

I went out with my friends earlier tonight at the Castle Shop. While I was on my way there, things came rushing in my mind. I don't know, perhaps because I don't have any freaking idea how to get there taking a jeepney. :)) Well, anyways, the streets are not familiar to me since I had been there only once which brings me to another excuse that I still don't have a mental map of the location and the fact that I am not good at remembering directions of how to get to a certain place. hahahaha! yeah! hahaha.

And so, yeah, we drank but we did not get drunk which is a good thing, I believe. haha. We talked a lot of funny things, we became nostalgic again which isn't new to us and then we also discussed about serious stuffs.

I felt really good talking things out with them. It felt really good. And one thing that I had learned is that whenever you feel like your heading nowhere, no directions at all or you just don't know which way to go to, go back from the very beginning, start from where you've started. Go back from the basics, because these are all fundamentals to get you to where you want to be. :)

However, the decision will always be yours. It will always be your choice whether you'll go back from where you have started, go on with your journey or simply STOP to where you are now.

At that point, I chose to start from where I have started.

And that made sense to me. ;)

formspring.me

2010-05-04T01:33:00.001+08:00

Ask me anything http://formspring.me/pamkinhimura

type smart, post wisely

2010-05-03T20:19:00.000+08:00

WHAT TO TYPE

*Be smart. If you don’t use privacy settings, anyone has access to your blog or profile, not just people you know.

DON'T

*Post your cell phone number, address, or the name of your school
*Post your friends’ names, ages, phone numbers, school names, or addresses
*Add people as friends to your site unless you know them in person
*Communicate with people you don’t know
*Give out your password to anyone other than your parent or guardian
*Meet in person with anyone you first “met” on a social networking site
*Respond to harassing or rude comments posted on your profile
*Make or post plans and activities on your site
*Post photos with school names, locations, license plates, or signs
*Post photos with the name of your sports team
*Post sexually provocative photos
*Respond to threatening or negative emails or IMs

DO

*Check the privacy settings of the social networking sites that you use
*Set privacy settings so that people can only be added as your friend if you approve them
*Set privacy settings so that people can only view your profile if you have approved them as a friend
*Remember that posting information about your friends could put them at risk
*Consider going through your blog and profile and removing information that could put you at risk
*Delete any unwanted messages or friends who continuously leave inappropriate comments
*Report comments to the networking site if they violate that site’s terms of service
*Save or print questionable activity and include date and time
*Tell your parents or guardian if anything happens online that makes you feel scared, uncomfortable, or confused

WHEN TO TELL

Trust Your Intuition:

Always go with your gut feeling, and if something doesn't feel right to you or a friend, report it. You can help stop the online victimization of youth.

BE CAUTIOUS OF

*Anyone you don't know who asks you for personal information, photos or videos
*Unsolicited obscene material from people or companies you don't know
*Misleading URLs on the Internet that point you to sites containing harmful materials rather than what you were looking for
*Anyone who wants to send you photos or videos containing obscene content of youth 18 and younger (The possession, manufacturing, or distributing of child pornography is illegal.)
*Anyone you don't know who asks you to meet them somewhere offline (If the person is an adult this is illegal and they can be charged with a criminal offense called Online Enticement.)
*Threats to your life or safety
*Threats to others

This is a very helpful way to prevent posers and remember to keep safe!

http://2smrt4u.com/

にほんじんCosplayers

2010-05-03T19:06:00.002+08:00

I heart COSPLAY~! :3

grabbed this photo from my friend Hatori Hanzo in his facebook account. <3

so excited for the event this 29th of May, CCC: Colors of Summer at Talamban Leisure Center.

Blog Readability Test Result

2008-07-23T22:14:00.000+08:00

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Personality test 100

2007-05-20T15:45:00.001+08:00

I took this personality test in the web. wala..hehe just sharing. =p

Key Areas of your Personality
Your personality stands out from the average person's particularly in the areas of:
Your High Curiosity Level
Your High Emotional Reactivity Level
One chapter of your 100-page Personality Report is dedicated to how you compare to the average woman and the average man in the 8 main areas of personality, and how this affects the way that people interact with you.

Subset of your Personality Measurement:
check out
http://www.personality100.com/page/member/memb_home_mpb.xml?sessionid=sid20070520093108346

Your personality is made up of a unique pattern of traits. These traits impact the way you think, feel, and behave on an everyday basis. In your report you will read a detailed explanation of each of your core personality traits, including your strengths and challenge points.
Your Interaction Style:
You scored 75 in the area of extroversion/ introversion, which means that your energy is directed primarily outward towards other people and things - rather than inward. You don't mind being alone, but you feel most energized and inspired when you are around other people. Your mixed extroversion/ introversion tendency affects your learning style: For example, it is more effective for you to listen to a person explain something than it is for you to read about it on your own.

Social patterns: You are left-brained when it comes to interacting with people and recognizing emotions in other people.
What does this mean? Since there is a 'cross-over' in the human brain for visual information, it means that you tend to focus on the right side of a person's face when you want to figure out what they are thinking and feeling. This is a unique way of viewing the world. You are likely to be sensitive to 'micro-expressions' - the tiny movements of the muscles in the face that occur, for example, when someone is telling a lie.
Hearing preferences are an interesting exception to this left-right crossover. For example, if two people were talking behind a closed door and you needed to put your ear on the door to hear, you would tend to use your left ear instead of your right.

This Personality Summary is based on only 2 out of the 32 personality dimensions we measured in the questionnaire. Your 100-page Personality Report is based on all 32 dimensions and will give you and in-depth analysis of your unique personality.
Knowing yourself better will help you lead a happier and more successful life:

Top 10 Facts about Low Self Esteem

2007-05-20T15:22:00.000+08:00

Top Ten Facts about Low Self Esteem

by Mark Tyrrell

Late in 2001, thinking about 'low self esteem' changed worldwide. The Rowntree Report (The costs and causes of low self esteem) paved the way for more effective, research-based identification and treatment of low self esteem.

If you suffer from low self esteem (or have been told you do), or treat people with low self esteem (or think you do), please read on.Mark Tyrrell, co-author of the Self Confidence Trainer, completed a UK tours in 2002, 2003, 2004 & 2005 teaching thousands of health professionals the facts about self esteem and how to treat low self esteem in their patients. He has also co-authored a book on self esteem for Axis Publishing called The Giant Within - Maximise Your Self Esteem.As you can imagine, Mark did a lot of research for his seminar 'How to Lift Low Self Esteem'.

He has listed his 10 most important 'Tips' for you here.

1) Low Self Esteem Not To Blame!We now know that all the ills of society cannot be blamed on low-self esteem (Prof Nicholas Emler - The Rowntree Report 2001). According to the latest research, low self esteem is not to blame for nearly as many problems as has traditionally been thought.

2) High Self Esteem Linked to CriminalityIt is now clear that too high self esteem or 'High Self Esteem Disorder' is often more of a problem. (This is NOT merely a 'disguised' form of low self-esteem, as commonly thought). So, if you are the victim of a bully then you can rest assured you don't have to feel sorry for them. Hundreds of pieces of reliable research now show that bullies and many criminals are much more likely to suffer from unrealistically high self esteem and impulse control problems than low self esteem. An exaggerated sense of entitlement - expecting much from many situations - is more likely to lead to frustration and aggressive, antisocial, or even criminal behaviour.

3) A Little More Uncertainty Can HelpContrary to popular opinion, people with low self-esteem are always very sure of themselves. This manifests in their conviction that they are worthless or inadequate. As you will know if you have ever tried to argue with someone who puts themselves down continually, it is very hard to do! When someone with low self esteem becomes less sure of their own opinion of themselves and therefore begins to assess counter evidence regarding their worthlessness, their self image begins to become more healthy.

4) You Can't Argue Someone Better!Telling some one they are great or wonderful when they are constantly negative about themselves will not work. Arguing with someone who is so sure of themselves does not work, as we all know. You will just break rapport with that person. We have all met people who feel more comfortable in relationships with people who treat them badly - because that person seems to see things the way they do.People with low self esteem can be upset by 'disconfirming feedback.' In other words if something happens which indicates that they may not be as terrible as they thought, it can feel disturbing as it contradicts their way of perceiving. Healthy self esteem needs to emerge subtly, not as a sudden result of hearing you are 'really special' or 'fantastic'.People need proof that unsettles the certainty that they are so 'defective' or inadequate and leads to a more realistic and balanced self-assessment. This can only happen when they become calmer and more relaxed so that they can observe themselves more objectively and less emotionally. When ever we are highly emotional our perception is distorted ('emotional hijacking') when people calm down around the idea of themselves then a healthier self-esteem can emerge!

5) Child Abuse Increases Likelihood of Low Self EsteemPeople who were abused as children (physical beating or sexual abuse) are more likely to suffer unrealistic low self esteem as adults. This is because of constant repetition of a 'message' that they are of little value or just an object to be used. In a way they have been 'brain washed' by constant criticism or abuse that they are a certain way.When a person begins to question this former conditioning or brainwashing then a healthier and more accurate sense of self can begin to emerge. However the person may have to be de-traumatised so the emotional brain responds differently in future (rather than solely learning to think differently about stuff). However the way we think and our assumptions need to be observed, understood and if necessary challenged. (explanatory styles)(Note: Most people who have low self esteem were not abused as children.)

6) Healthy Pleasures Are VitalWe need to engage in activities which we enjoy and in which we can 'lose ourselves' regularly. The better one's sense of themselves the less they tend to use words like 'me, myself, I, mine' (personal pronouns) Someone's mental and even, to some extent, physical health can be directly related to how 'self-referential' they are in their conversation - as people become healthier they use the 'I' word less, in the same way that when your knee stops hurting you don't need to rub it any more. People should be encouraged to focus their attention away from themselves as well as to be able to take their own needs into account. A healthy balance should be encouraged as should the development of real practical skills. Real responsibility should be encouraged so that self-worth can respond to external evidence on an ongoing basis.

7) Make the Most of SuccessLow self esteem requires a particular attitude towards success. Whenever you succeed at something, you must 'write it off' as good luck, chance, or someone else's responsibility.To gain a more realistic view of yourself, you need to take appropriate credit for your successes. In the Self Confidence Trainer, we call this skill 'Converting'.This involves learning how to convert real successes into statements about yourself. The other part of the picture is to view perceived failures as temporary and not statements about your 'core identity'.

Build on Solid Foundations

For anyone to be psychologically and physicaly healthy on an ongoing basis, there are a set of requirements that must be built into life. This is the checklist I use with my patients:

The need to give and receive attention
Taking care of the mind-body connection
The need for meaning, purpose and goals
The need for a connection to something greater than ourselves
The need for creativity and stimulation
The need for intimacy and connection
The need for a sense of control
The need for status
The need for a sense of safety and security

Of course, it is likely that at any one time, one or more of these may be slightly lacking in your life, without dire consequences. However, in the long-term, they must all be catered for one way or another.

9) Characteristics of Genuinely Low Self Esteem Social withdrawal Anxiety and emotional turmoil Lack of social skills and self confidence. Depression and/or bouts of sadness Less social conformity Eating disorders Inability to accept compliments An Inability to see yourself 'squarely' - to be fair to yourself Accentuating the negative Exaggerated concern over what they imagine other people think Self neglect Treating yourself badly but NOT other people Worrying whether you have treated others badly Reluctance to take on challenges Reluctance to trust your own opinion Expect little out of life for yourself

10) It's not just about Positive Thinking!Positive thinking can be useful in that it challenges you to form a different view on things. However, most of the time it just takes the form of arguing with yourself, and as we've seen from 4) above, this doesn't work.

To change your self image and improve low self esteem, you need to believe in an alternative opinion of yourself, not just repeat platitudes about how great you are really!

10 Signs of Ailing Mind

2007-05-20T15:07:00.000+08:00

Experts describe the physical and mental signs that may indicate emotional distress.Maybe you’re having that proverbial “bad day” - or perhaps a rough few weeks: Feeling down, anxious, overstressed, as if you’re one breath away from the “last straw.”If so, you may be surprised to learn it’s quite common; doctors say it’s part of the human condition.“The presence of anxiety, of a depressive mood or of a conflict within the mind, does not stamp any individual as having a psychological problem because, as a matter of fact, these qualities are indigenous to the species,” says Charles Goodstein, MD, clinical professor of psychiatry at NYU Medical Center in New York City.But if living on the “last straw” has more or less become your way of life, experts say there’s something on your mind that is crying out for your attention.“The key is how often you are feeling this sense of distress, how bad it gets, and how long it lasts; that is what can help determine the seriousness of your situation,” says Abby Aronowitz, PhD, the director of SelfHelpDirectives.com.To help you gain some important perspective on the problems in your life, three experts helped WebMD put together this list of symptoms you should not ignore. If any of these signs seem true for you, speak to your family doctor and request a complete physical. If everything checks out OK, ask your doctor if you might benefit from professional counseling.

Sleep and Weight
usual, if you can’t fall asleep or wake up after only a few hours and can’t go back to sleep, experts say emotional distress may be looming large in your life.“If you have recurring disturbances of sleep more than once or twice a week, and there are no physical reasons your doctor can identify, your problem may be linked to a psychological problem — most commonly, anxiety or depression,” says Goodstein.

2. Dramatic weight fluctuations/changes in eating patterns. Have you gained or lost a significant amount of weight without any changes in your diet or exercise regime? Do you find yourself constantly thinking about food — or repulsed by the thought of eating? If so, experts say it could be a sign of emotional distress.

“Constant preoccupation with food, weight, and body image is a sign that an eating disorder is sapping energy from other areas of life,” says Aronowitz. In women and young girls a loss of menstruation in conjunction with changes in appetite can also be a sign of trouble.Also look out for a lack of appetite. Goodstein says it can sometimes be a sign of depression.

Unusual Symptoms and Short Fuses

3. Unexplained physical symptoms. If, despite a complete physical workout and even a visit to a specialist or two, no one can find a reason behind your physical complaints, it may be your body’s way of letting you know that your mind is in distress.

“Unusual symptoms that resist the million-dollar workup can be a sign that your body is expressing some kind of emotional upset,” says Goodstein. Problems commonly linked to emotional distress can include headaches, a rumbling stomach, diarrhea, constipation, and chronic pain — especially backaches.

4. Difficulty managing anger or controlling your temper. Are you fine when you’re by yourself but frequently get provoked to an explosion by your spouse, children, friends, or co-workers? If so, you may be on stress overload, a situation that is dangerous to your physical and mental health — and unhealthy for those around you.

“Not being able to control your anger is a sign of inability to manage feelings. And this is the one symptom that has the biggest impact on other people; children and women especially are affected,” says Anie Kalayjian, EdD, RN, adjunct professor of psychology at Fordham University in New York City.Generally, she says, folks who have anger-management problems do not recognize the symptoms because they feel fine when they are by themselves.

“This is something that only comes into play in relation to another person — so it’s easy to blame the other person for what is really your symptom,” Kalayjian tells WebMD.Even if you don’t see the signs in yourself, Kalayjian says consider counseling if your boss, co- workers, spouse, family, or friends are frequently telling you to calm down and watch your temper.

Obsessive, Tired, or Forgetful?

5. Compulsive/obsessive behaviors. Are you washing your hands — or feel a compulsion to do so — even though there’s no logical reason? Has the fun gone out of life because you are constantly worrying that something bad is going to happen? Does it take you an hour or more to leave your home because you’re bogged down with a series of “rituals” — like touching things or rechecking locks, the stove, the iron? If so, you may have more anxiety in your life than you can handle alone.

“Obsessions are repetitive thoughts which resemble worry and are accompanied by anxiety. Compulsions are behavioral acts designed to eliminate the obsessions. And sometimes if your mind becomes so cluttered with obsessions, and your day so filled with compulsions, life as you know becomes completely taken over by anxiety and counterproductive rituals,” says Aronowitz.

6. Chronic fatigue, tiredness, and lack of energy.

“When the body cannot handle emotional overload, it simply begins to shut down. And that is often manifested by a sense of extreme tiredness and fatigue,” says Kalayjian.Goodstein adds that feeling too “beat” to do the things you used to love — even when a physical checkup shows everything is alright — can be a sign of emotional distress and depression.

7. Memory problems. Lots of things can temporarily interfere with your memory, from the hormonal changes of menopause, to a preoccupation with a work problem, to a lack of sleep. But it can also be caused by stress, a reaction to a traumatic event, or sometimes an illness such as Alzheimer’s disease. How do you know the difference?

“You need a physical examination first and foremost,” says Kalayjian. If everything checks out OK, she says, then anxiety, depression, or sometimes an unrecognized reaction to a traumatic event you have yet to deal with may be behind your forgetfulness.

Social Activity, Sex, and Mood

8. Shunning social activity. Did you love to go the movies with friends and now you don’t? Do you seem fine at work but the minute you’re home you jump into bed and just “veg out”? Are you turning down invitations because you simply feel better when you stay at home? Experts say all can be signs that your emotions may be getting the best of you.

“Any significant change in social behavior for a significant amount of time could indicate a stress overload or other emotional issues are at work,” says Kalayjian.Aronowitz adds that if phobias or fears of certain places or events are keeping you from doing what you want, then anxiety may be looming large in your life.

9. Sex is no longer fun. Are you going through the motions and not feeling the pleasure that sex once brought to your life? Do you love your partner, but just don’t want to make love? If a physical checkup reveals everything is fine, then Kalayjian says an underlying depression, or an anxiety disorder, may be behind your slump.

“Diminished sexual desire and inability to feel joy in the sexual act itself can be a sign of emotional distress,” she says. While that distress may be linked to your relationship with your partner, experts say just as often it could be linked to anxiety stemming from a totally different area of your life.

10. Mood swings and erratic behavior noticed by more than one person. While life may seem like “business as usual” to you, if friends or family members are commenting on your “moody” behavior, experts say pay attention.

“You have to listen to not only your own inner voice, but also listen to what you hear from your best friends, your neighbors, your spouse, your family. Others can have an observation of you that you cannot see,” says Kalayjian. “The greater number of people telling you that something is wrong, the more you need to pay attention.”

SOURCES: Charles Goodstein, MD, clinical professor, psychiatry, NYU Medical Center, New York City; Abby Aronowitz, PhD, psychologist; director, SelfHelpDirectives.com, Huntington, N.Y. Anie Kalayjian, EdD, RN, adjunct professor, psychology, Fordham University, New York City.Reviewed on January 01, 2006WebMD, Inc. All rights reserved.

on a being Volunteer Poll Watcher

2007-05-17T18:59:00.001+08:00

One of the schools were the election took place was at my school back in elementary. We had several seminars before the election. It was a very nice experience since that was my first time to be a volunteer poll watcher, a non-partisan group CCIMPEL in coordination with Parish Pastoral Council for Responsible Voting (PPCRV) of which I am an active member of so they were the ones who influenced me to join but aside from that it was MY CHOICE to be a volunteer.

A day before may 13, I was at church to help out with the Voter's Assistance Center where people can ask for their precinct no. and where it is located. I went home at around 10pm and was lying on my bed at around 11PM and had a hard time sleeping since because of back pains. hahaha! yeah, m that old. haha!

Being a first time volunteer of the election was good though from the start of the election hours there were glitches that happened in the precinct that I was assigned to. The election should start at 7:00 am but then we started at 8:00AM since the Voter's list that should be posted outside the precinct was left at the COMELEC office so the chairman had to go and get it. There were several people who arrived and were nagging why the voting started so late. So, I had to explain what had happened. haha! Though the chairman, the comelec and the voters have lapses of their own. Eventually, the voting became peaceful and those impatient and inconsiderate voters were gone.

At 3:00pm the voting was over. The Board of Election Inspectors counted and tallied the votes. And so, the election was over at my assigned precinct at around 3:55am.

The experience was really stressful but i find it very fulfilling to be able help the society in attaining a clean, peaceful, and unbiased election in my little ways.

type smart, post wisely

2007-05-06T06:27:00.000+08:00

WHAT TO TYPE
*Be smart. If you don’t use privacy settings, anyone has access to your blog or profile, not just people you know.

DON'T
*Post your cell phone number, address, or the name of your school
*Post your friends’ names, ages, phone numbers, school names, or addresses
*Add people as friends to your site unless you know them in person
*Communicate with people you don’t know
*Give out your password to anyone other than your parent or guardian
*Meet in person with anyone you first “met” on a social networking site
*Respond to harassing or rude comments posted on your profile
*Make or post plans and activities on your site
*Post photos with school names, locations, license plates, or signs
*Post photos with the name of your sports team
*Post sexually provocative photos
*Respond to threatening or negative emails or IMs

DO
*Check the privacy settings of the social networking sites that you use
*Set privacy settings so that people can only be added as your friend if you approve them
*Set privacy settings so that people can only view your profile if you have approved them as a friend
*Remember that posting information about your friends could put them at risk
*Consider going through your blog and profile and removing information that could put you at risk
*Delete any unwanted messages or friends who continuously leave inappropriate comments
*Report comments to the networking site if they violate that site’s terms of service
*Save or print questionable activity and include date and time
*Tell your parents or guardian if anything happens online that makes you feel scared, uncomfortable, or confused

WHEN TO TELL
Trust Your Intuition: Always go with your gut feeling, and if something doesn't feel right to you or a friend, report it. You can help stop the online victimization of youth.

BE CAUTIOUS OF
*Anyone you don't know who asks you for personal information, photos or videos
*Unsolicited obscene material from people or companies you don't know
*Misleading URLs on the Internet that point you to sites containing harmful materials rather than what you were looking for
*Anyone who wants to send you photos or videos containing obscene content of youth 18 and younger (The possession, manufacturing, or distributing of child pornography is illegal.)
*Anyone you don't know who asks you to meet them somewhere offline (If the person is an adult this is illegal and they can be charged with a criminal offense called Online Enticement.)
*Threats to your life or safety
*Threats to others

This is a very helpful way to prevent posers and remember to keep safe!

Summer getaway

2007-04-30T14:20:00.001+08:00

yesterday, april 29, 2007 sunday. My friends and I went on trip at Alcoy, Cebu, it was a 2 1/2 hours away from the city. It was really a lot of fun.

We had planned to meet up at 5am but the my friends arrived 7am.. imagine? soo sad for the early birds.hahaha!

The place was really nice. white sands, the sun, the blue waters..and really good friends that you have..good food. wow! perfect! then after that we even went to the spring take note COLD spring not HOT spring. lolx at Dalaguete it's just a minute away from alcoy so we rushed to get there and take a dip. hehe

I really love my friends so much. after 2 years of parting ways for our college life, we still keep in touch and bond with each other inspite of our busy schedules. :)

I can't stop

2007-04-20T18:55:00.000+08:00

thinking..thinking..thinking..thinking..thinking..thinking..thinking..
thinking..thinking..thinking..thinking..thinking..thinking..thinking..thinking..
thinking..thinking..thinking..thinking..thinking..thinking..thinking..thinking..
thinking..thinking..thinking..thinking..thinking..thinking..thinking..thinking..
thinking..thinking..thinking..thinking..thinking..thinking..thinking..thinking..thinking.
thinking..thinking..thinking..thinking..thinking..thinking..thinking..

ABOUT HIM! deym!
I promise myself that I would not fall for this person,
but then I just woke up one day swallowing all the things that I
have said...
now, I can't get him out of my head!
I'm so deym love him inspite of the his negative side
I have seen and witnessed it all
but i just don't understand what the hell about me not forgetting him.
Why my hypothalamus just couldn't stop.
Some people tell me that I should stay away from him, but I just can't.
Hearts has reasons which we can't understand. wtf!

I'm not going see to him anymore after this month of april.. =(
huhuhuhu it is really depressing..

Nice to be back at my blog.

2006-12-06T15:41:00.000+08:00

it's been a very long time since i haven't logged in to my beloved blog.hehe
i'm kinda busy these past few months and i didn't even notice that christmas is in the air na pala! (wow! ang dali naman ng araw noh?!)

MERRY CHRISTMAS sa lahat! at don't forget that the true essence of christmas is our Lord's birthday. Happy birthday Jesus! Mwauhhh! mwauh!!

i won't stay that long, coz i still have things to do.
ciao!

God bless! and Never forget to pray.

=]

Sembreak escapade at the Beach with my friends

2006-10-26T19:12:00.001+08:00

Highschool outing

2006-10-23T17:42:00.000+08:00

October 22, 2006 my highschool classmates had an outing at ocean pearl. I woke up so late that I thought they had left me already, but then nung dumating ako..haha! it was still Ariel who came first. I thought that the outing will be postponed because that time the rain fell so hard.

We just laughed at each other and thought that section Faith are still the same person as before. Arriving late is always on the first list. lolx

The show must go on, so when everyone arrived, we decided to hit the road and eventually arrived safetly at the beach.

We really had so much fun during the outing. My (former) classmates were all having soo much fun that we end up going home at 6:00 o'clock in the evening excluding the 1 hour travel to each of our own houses, but before I went home, I visited the adoration chapel of Our Lady of Guadalupe Parish Church to pray and thank God for a very wonderful day he has given me, thanking him for giving me such good friends and blessings that he has given me and he will be given me soon. =]

We took pictures of ourselves during the outing, but melody (my close friend) haven't sent it yet on my email..but as soon as I receive that pictures, of course, I won't forget to post all of them here. ;)

"Friends will always be friends, no matter how far the distance is..even if we don't hang-out that much together because we don't have the same school."

Pamela

Psychology Society Induction of Officers

2006-10-16T14:32:00.000+08:00

The Psychology Society of University of Southern Philippines as a neophyte organization held it's 1st induction of officers on Oct. 16, 2006. Even though there are some who had not make it due to some important matters the event still turned out fine.:)

Pictures:

It's me with the peace sign.. hehe *peace out*

With our adviser Mr. Alvarito Suarez
3rd row standing L-R (Iris, Floriza, March, Rowena and Alea)
I am seated at the 2nd row L-R (Debbie, ME, Flor and Michelle)
1st row seated L-R (Maricel, Rachelle, Sir Suarez and Jonavie)

"Photographs may fade but special memories will always be cherished and treasured as long as we live. "

Pamela

True Story of Success!

2006-10-13T09:45:00.001+08:00

Many things had happened in just one day. Yesterday, Oct. 12, 2006 was our Final examination for Filipino, Deadline of our Zoology 1 individual projects, and the highlight event of my day was our Song Interpretation Contest.

We had our dress rehearsal before the presentation at our 10:00 - 11:30 Thursday History Class, since we won't meet with our prof. anymore because that period will be our very last meeting before the semester ends.

After my lunch break, I took my Fil. examination at 1:00pm. I finish the exam early before the time and got disappointed, when I finally realized that I've got 1 mistake on it. GRRRR!

I can't undo it, so i decided not to mind it and accept it. I decided to work with my lacking labels for my specimen in the glass slide. I was glad then, because all of my slides were accepted by our zoology professor and NONE of it were rejected and was thrown in the trash. LOL

Since, I am a working-scholar of our school, of course, I still have work to do and finish every task that I am assigned to do.

I was busy then before 4:30pm had arrived. But still I was able to overcome my busy-ness and had managed to work with my groupmates of our lacking props that we have to finish.

All of us were busy doing the things like, dressing up, applying make-up and of course! not to forget our Hair do's ( well, thanks to YAMIE my groupmate and a co-working scholar who had done a very awesome do' for us)

The final judgment has come on time. The most exciting part was I ran as fast I can because our groupmate came to us and told us that we were going to be the first presenters. I was like "OMYGAH!" and ran so fast. Luckily, we arrived on time and were able to perform well.

After a very hard work, arguments with the class and as well as the late-night practice which makes us go home late, were all worth it.

When the presentation was over, I hugged my very special friend Michelle (who is actually a Lesbian) and told her everything I felt during that moment (that i felt nervous, scared and happy that it was all over.) I also told her that I am going to miss her since she will be leaving soon back to her hometown (MANILA) but she promised to me that she will be back before the class starts for the second semester. She told me not to cry, but then I can't help my tears fall from my eyes with all the mixed emotions I have felt during that night.

I stopped crying and took pictures with her and my friends. (I'll post it here soon. ;)) We watched the other class perform. While watching, Debie (a fellow psych-student & my groupmate) and I talked with each other and I was so honored that she has trusted me about her crush in our class. She told me that she never told it to anyone else except me because she trusts me. Awww... It was so sweet of her to tell me that.

Our class wasn't aiming to get the top spot nor win. All we wanted was to present our number as well as our class even though we are not in a block section that is why during practice we all have conflicts with our schedules, but then we perfomed it all well. We were surprised when we brought home the 3rd winning place. Maybe not the top spot but at least we did it. (it's sooo much for a blessing.)

For me, It's not about winning the contest, for we all know deep inside that we are all winners in our own little ways.

Having wonderful moments with the whole class although we don't understand each others' views sometimes, maybe because of our varied beliefs and personalites, the laughters inside the classroom and doing works together will surely be miss and cherish by everyone of us. But we can't erase or destroy the STRONG FOUNDATION which is FRIENDSHIP that binds us all together and will never break us apart will remain here in our hearts as long as we live.

"A letter that Yamie left in our dressing room after the presentation"
Written in cebuano dialect but I'll translate it for you.

Pam,

Gud eve!! Hehehe Ü sobrang okay lang presentation natin!!! Ito na ang malong ni Mai (kasamahan na ming Muslim) thanks to May ha Ü! Ingatz...Hehehe Wag kanang iiyak pasado na tayo!!!

I so love this letter because it will remind me of our moments together with my classmates and now I call "FRIENDS".

Pamela

Bizarre questions without answers

2006-10-11T15:24:00.000+08:00

Often times, we count the failures that we have encountered, but haven't we realize that there are still a lot of things to thank about rather than, nagging about the things that have happened to you? Sometimes, I feel like everything doesn't come my way and doesn't come out of what I have planned them to be.

We ask our selves, why this? why that? how? and maybe perhaps we are not contented of what we have. right? But we have to think of it deeply, we are even so lucky compared to those who are really struggling to live... I have watch a film regarding poverty and child labor with our history class. We have decided to watch the film since our focus in our pre-finals would be the present situation of our society. I was really touched by the children of how they wish to have something but then.. they just can't have it. How they wish to play and enjoy their childhood days, but look at where they are? In the farm, working for people they don't even know and who gives them low salary after a very stressful work. How they wish to study but can't or even their parents doesn't want them to, for they still have to work hard and raise money for their family. What's worst is that after a whole day under the heat of the sun in farming, they only get 40 pesos out of it. ( I know you can't believe it but that is the reality dude!) I really cried while watching the film. (some others will say it's so O.A or something but that's how i feel i was sad for them and feel blessed at the same time.) That moment on, I have realize how lucky I'am to be raise well by my parents though sometimes there are really problems regarding financial aspects but then, I'm still thankful cos my parents had let me enjoy my childhood days and even sent me to school and supports me of what my decisions are and what I want. I know that there are times, that Im hard-headed and may offend them due to it and some other matters but then, they are still there. Holding me and are behind my back always.. and forever they will.

Things are really bizarre in way, that you'll never know the answers to your questions. And we sometimes blame this to the world, to someone else or even GOD. But we haven't even think of blaming ourselves for it. why? The answer is i don't know so strange it may seem. But someday and somehow the answer to our questions will be answered. We just have to be patient and wait for it to come.

Pamela

Finally Updated

2006-10-09T10:32:00.000+08:00

Since i've got this blog, I finally got addicted to it. So I have decided to update it, since it's layout at first was kinda flat and not so good to look at. It's contents have finally been updated.

Enough of the blog thingy. Now, I will make chikka na. okay? hehehe

Today's week will soon be very busy so i'll have to make an advance chikka to all of you. hehe

Finals is on the go! And that means I won't have much time to go over the net and be with my beloved teentalkers.. awww.. i will miss you gurlz. :( well, it doesn't mean goodbye yet, it's just that i'm gonna take a break with tempations first. Cos, I'm really addicted to blogs and forums so I have to lie-low with it and DO STUDY first. My future is at stake as of the moment, soooo if I'm not gonna study. geez! i might fail! and don't want that to happen. Holy Cow! hehehe

My weeks going to be busy and all, as of now, i'm gonna step back and say so long everyone.

I love you all!

mwuah! Gawd Bless!

Ciao!

Pamela

blah-blah-blah :)

2006-10-07T09:51:00.000+08:00

I finally got my photo here in my new blog. I really had a hard time uploading the photo and having the right url for it, since i'm only using the school's computer and we are not allowed to open unecessary websites. All we have to do here is research. Grrr! We can't open friendster for they are blocking it. I don't know how they did that, but I'm sure, they're just thinking for the good of the students. Cos if they will not block the "friendster site" maybe a lot of students will be hanging-out in the internet laboratory (friendster addicts) and won't attend their classes anymore which is not good.

I pretty understand the policy of our school about the internet usage. And i'm sure they up to something good and not to punish students or whatsoever. hehehe

I finally got this new blog site and it's nice to have one again.hehe! This my second blog and probably one more to go. hehehe Not unless if get tired of making another one. LOL I really lurve having my own blog because it makes me feel comfortable of expressing my self. I write whatever I want to say since this is my blog and NO ONE ELSE WILL CARE!!! mind you own business as what they say.hehe am i so mean? not i guess..it's just freedom of expression that i'm trying to emphasize here. hehehe

Since i've got my second blog, I would like to take this opportunity to thank my friend over the net. To all the teentalkers who inspired me a lot in their little many ways. I thank you gurls, especially to my ATe Gabby, Ate Hannah, Ate Grace, Ate Xy, my reyn, Irene, Daddy Marvz, Mommie Hanmae (cebuana gaya ko!), Jhanna, Nikki, Kaye, anne aka princess..lahat-lahat na.. medyo dami nyo kasi..sa mga di ko nalagay, salamat rin sa inyo..lam nyo na sino kayo. I may have not enumerate all of you here but here in my HEART you'll always be remebered and never be forgotten. nakz! di, totoo talaga..no joke! :P

Pamela

Speak your mind.

2006-10-06T17:40:00.000+08:00

People have different ways of expressing their feelings. Others have the capacity to burst and be wild. But, there are others who tend to sit around holding their pen and write down whatever it is that pops-out in their head.
You dont need to be fluent in one language or another just to make a blog. But for some reason, you have to, in order to get a better job. Fluency in oral and written communication skills are always on the first priority of the company. *rolls eyes*
I'm not a very good writer honestly, but I just try to speak and write up whatever I want to let out. I don't mind whatever NOT-SO-GOOD to hear words that may come out, as long as, whatever DANG emotions I have inside can be expressed. Or otherwise, this might result to Dypsnea or even CHF (Congestive Heart Failure). You might laugh at it but that disease is so dangerous and can cause DEATH. Gosh! I don't want to die early. Everyone one of us wants to be alive forever but that seems so impossible. It's not that I'm afraid to face it, you know, I still want to enjoy life still and make the most of it.
Speaking of the word ENJOY as in E-N-J-O-Y, I dun no if I still have time for it. Ha-ha! Why?! Because..Right now, I'm so CAUGHT UP with studies and all. Especially FINALS approaching and you'll wake up one morning and OH! It's the examination day already. (That's how fast, time runs by the way. doesn't it?) OMYGAH! So much to do,,, projects, research and etc. I can do it! (what an extreme fighting spirit!) that jus how it's all about, having a positive outlook of life. Of how you look at things and the way you deal with all the pressures.
If we all just work hard for it, I know we will definitely reap the fruit of what we have planted. (Oh? How's that for an inspiring quotable quotes from me?) LOL.
We will all be successful in the end. Right aye? Surely you'll say YES to it! Good luck to us all. ; p

Pamela